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Name: Dana
Birthday: 7/30/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Theatre (above all others), music, singing, and helping people
Expertise: Looking like a fool no matter what
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
12/6/2004
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| I'm heading for another breakdown.
Why. Why can't I dream? Why can't I have my own goals? Why do you have to shoot me down every god damn time? I'm miserable here. Why can't you see that? Every second of every day, I'm wishing I was somewhere else. So please tell me WHY you are so fucking blind?
Two nights ago, I had a pretty huge meltdown. I've cried myself to sleep a lot lately...but nothing like this. I haven't cried that hard in YEARS. It was so bad, that I was afraid to go to bed last night, for fear of losing my head like that again...
I don't know what to do anymore... I'm losing myself.
Help.
~DRS~
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| Wow. It's been quite a while, hasn't it? (brief comment...spell check didn't recognize "hasn't" as a word...?) It's been nearly a year since my last entry on here...
A lot has changed...
I'm back home now in Akron. I'm going part time to Stark State Community College... And more importantly, I'm missing UC like crazy. Last year didn't end well. My grades were more or less shit. That was probably the biggest mistake I've made in my life. Throwing that experience away like that...
Don't get me wrong...there are certain aspects about being at home that I do enjoy. I like having my own room, not having to worry about buying my own food or meal plans, not having to worry about laundry (for the most part)... But overall, right now the negatives are outweighing the positives.
Normally I'm not such a pessimistic person...but it's really getting to me lately.
Oh well. *sigh*
~DRS~
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| Hehehe. I'm bored.
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I want a tattoo. (my bird!!)
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] have/I've had braces.
[x] wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[=( ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[x] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school. (classes...)
Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry. (...don't judge me!)
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. (ADHD)
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office/hospital with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x]I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[x] I've driven/been driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star. (two, actually!!)
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the Internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[the movie, not the production] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[xxxxxx] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[x] I'm single, as usual
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher. (an assistant teacher...a LONG time ago...)
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I am a terrible liar.
[ ] I've lied a lot about my past. (more like just not mentioned things.)
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't several times.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't several times.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game. (it's okay with my younger cousins, hahaha)
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[in school suspension] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.
Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own a designer purse//clothing, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. (guitar strap)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
Political/Social Attitudes
[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I don't like stupid people.
[x] I'm a feminist. (to some extent, yes)
[ ] I'm very outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal.
[ ] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[x] I'm religious. (again, to some extent)
[x] I dress fairly modestly. (fairly meaning my boobs aren't hanging out, and neither is my butt)
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."
Random
[x] I can sing well. (I'd liek to think so)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I don't like hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[depends] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[x] I like sports
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[eh...sort of] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I wish I knew how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
That was fun. =)
~DRS~
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| Hahaha. Right. But seriously, I am going to make an effort to write in here more frequently. This is my return to xanga everyone, so WATCH OUT. Lol... XD
Well...it's Christmas Eve Day. I'm currently waiting for a pretty important school-related e-mail. Unfortunately, it's still not coming and I'm getting kinda antsy. My little sister and her friends are going to Laser Quest at noon, and if I don't have this e-mail my mom might not let me go with the whole family...
But if I DO go to laser quest...wait...never mind. I was about to say that I needed a neat or funny name. But I thought of one before I could even finish typing. Black Rose. Hehehehe. Those of you who know me best know my obsession with the name Rose. =) And if you guys didn't already now, Rose is my middle name. =D
Another random tid-bit for you avid readers (THAT'S a laugh...). I got the book Breaking Dawn for Hanukkah the night before last. The night I got it, I read it from 8-1. Then last night I read from 9:30-12ish. From just those times, I'm on page 594. *pleased grin*
And last but not least, I would like to inform you guys about how excited I am to be writing something new. It certainly doesn't have a title yet, it's about a boy named Dustin and a girl (you guessed it) named Rose. Dustin is a shape-changer. He can change, at will, into a HUGE wolf. I'm a bit hesitant to say much more for fear of some random person reading this and stealing my idea. =/
So there you have it. A complete update. =) Well I should go eat and get dressed...hopefully to play some Laser Quest.
Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah. <3
~DRS~
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| Holy shit...that's a LOT of days... O.O
Anyway...it's winter break. =) Yes this should be a happy time. But for me it just means more stress because of my crazy mother. It just drives me nuts, the things she says...and then we argue and I get in trouble for arguing. Gyah. XP
Tonight my whole family is going out to Wasabi for dinner for my little sister's report card. Then tomorrow is what I'm most excited and anxious for.
When I was in grade school, I had two big crushes. The first was Michael. He went to pre-school with me...and then went to Revere until about 5th grade. Then he switched schools and I didn't see him again until almost 5 years later. This past summer (due mostly to Facebook), we got back in touch, and stayed in touch throughout the first part of this school year.
I got a call from him the other day and tomorrow he's coming here for a good part of the day to hang out, play video games, watch Dragon Ball Z, etc. Yes, we really are dorks like that. But anyway, the point is, I'm actually still kinda crushing on him. And he's coming here tomorrow...!!!
Sleeping probably won't be happening tonight. *makes a face*
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